As I was driving today, I slowly came to a stop as the light turned red at a busy intersection. Out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the biggest smile. I cracked my window & noticed how it was accompanied by a roaring laugh flowing from a girl running down the sidewalk as her dad chased behind. His smile was just as wide, if not wider than hers.
Then I cried. Without warning… I slowly felt the water well up in my eyes & like rain drops, the tears began to slowly roll down my cheeks.
I had no idea why I was crying.
The light turned green and I carried on to my destination. As I drove, I kept envisioning that moment between the little girl & her dad…
What a beautiful moment. It was just that. I allowed myself to stop and really notice that. Rather than stopping to check my phone at the light or impatiently tap my fingers on the steering wheel waiting for it to change… I let my eyes wander.
The truth is, I didn’t realize until this moment that a dark cloud had been hovering over me and it was like it had parted just perfectly to let the sun shine through, right onto my face. (Anyone else get cabin fever in the winter????)
It’s incredible what that can do to you. I couldn’t stop smiling. My tears subsided as I began to laugh out loud in my car. I want to feel that moment every day. In every situation where I feel like I’m failing, falling short or run dry by motherhood. I will try to look to that moment, to let the sun shine through…
Because you know what? They’re everywhere. Smiles, laughs, moments of pure BLISS. We just have to be open to them. To SEE them. To part the clouds & let the sun shine through.
I am worthy of bliss. I will look to the sun. One day at a time. Setting that intention will allow us to be open to a beautiful week ahead.